Friend. From that moment when we are closer, it started. Whatever you do. Wherever you are I just can't stop peeking or whatever you call that. I want to know everything. Sounds like a pervert but its those lingering. I have been cheating myself saying that its temporary, but till today its been a couple of years. Rumors about you and other person saddens me but each time I want to bury everything. You gave me that shot and the cycle goes on and on
Till now. Its a temptation. A yearn. Whatever you describe it. .sometimes Just want to let it out and tell you how i feel . But probably it's a scorpio thingy, I just tend to keep everything and before I knew it, its like a couple of years passed and soon gonna graduate. When will it end, or have a clear line. Whether to end or start? I can't go on every day like this. You once were lonely after your stuff with the one before the current one and asked me to join. I felt like finally somebody wants to recognise me and the whole idea sounds cool. Until you found somebody to be your best. Then the distance between us gets from close to far; hot to cold. Woah. Ok. Enough. I don know how to handle this but nvm, the year Is ending. I believe I can forget it if I put in more effort. I don suppose we will end up in the same sch or even if really, it will definitely not be the same class. Plsplspls . No more those.. Im always prepared to be a loner. Toodles .

I once again start to open up myself and this is what I get. Great. Back to my isolated world;dependent on my own. I pluck up my courage and make effort to blend into you all. Okay. This have to stop. From this moment. Anyways though its sad when the year ends, but cause of you ppl I'm kind of happy then we are graduating. Lazy to elaborate. Gonna buy lunch and poa remedial alone. Yay. Okay. Bye

It seems like I have trusted the wrong person. I let you in way too early. You would rather trusted an outsider than me. Great. What i am to you? What you are to me is definitely more than what i am to you. However, that belongs in the history . Im not gonna take any acts. Just take it as my payment for learn this lesson. Nvm it's still not late. From now on, nothing will be able to trigger my heart, my mind, my life anymore. You are no longer my friend but an outsider.

Next, you. I can conclude almost 100% that you are eyeing on my and mother money. Sneaking up to my cupboard to take my savings? Within few hours and those money are gone? If you have nvr do anything guilty, you won't be sneaking and each time avoid the question on 'whats the reason'. You have owe us so much. You being not to tell me is making me hard to believe that you are innocent. Look at how you treat mother? Is that the correct way? And don complain when she scolds you, think about who and what causes her to be like that. Fucking bastard. In my life, I would probably thank you for bringing me up, though most of the work is from mother. After that, that's all. No more chances. I have officially lost all my trust and sees you as my foe. You disfigured the perfect image of father in me thoroughly And lastly, you broke this family up. Or rather you only fuck mother cause of her young looks but now you find her looks like a pile of shit and just cursing her to die every sec, so that you can get her assets. Probably you have longed this day to come more than anybody. What I can confirm is you are ditching this family, and I'm gonna ditched you after I repay you with great sum of money. Since in your eyes, money is most important. Kins are probably worthless to you. So money would be the most practical method to clear those 'debts' that you gave me. Through fucking mother. I fucking swearing I will make those money ready asap. I'm sure mother would want not to have anything to do with you, after you turned her life upside down for almost 20years..